Friday, October 22, 2010

Different Trips To The Same Place

Sometimes I read something and I just love it and want to share it with everyone.  Well this is one of those times.  My friend Jessica posted this on her blog.  It was written in reference to adoption.  However, Jon and I could relate to it in different ways after having 3 pregnancy losses.  I just wanted to share!

  Different Trips To The Same Place

Deciding to have a baby is like planning a trip to Australia. You've heard it's a wonderful place; you've read many guidebooks and feel certain you're ready to go. Everyone you know has traveled there by plane. They say it can be a turbulent flight with occasional rough landings, but you can look forward to being pampered on the trip.


So you go to the airport and ask the ticket agent for a ticket to Australia. All around you, excited people are boarding planes for Australia. It seems there is no seat for you; you'll have to wait for the next flight. Impatient, but anticipating a wonderful trip, you wait, and wait, and wait.


Flights to Australia continue to come and go. People say silly things like, "Relax. You'll get on a flight soon." Other people actually get on a plane and then cancel their trip, to which you cry, "It's not fair!"


After a long time the ticket agent tells you, "I'm sorry; we're not going to be able to get you on a plane to Australia. Perhaps you should think about going by boat."


"By BOAT!" you say. "Going by boat will take a very long time and it costs a great deal of money. I really had my heart set on going by plane." So you go home and think about not going to Australia at all. You wonder if Australia will be as beautiful if you approach it by sea rather than air. But you have long dreamed of this wonderful place, and finally you decide to travel by boat.

It is a long trip, many months over many rough seas. No one pampers you. You wonder if you will ever see Australia. Meanwhile, your friends have flown back and forth to Australia two or three more times, marveling about each trip.


Then one glorious day, the boat docks in Australia. Is is more exquisite that you ever imagined, and the beauty is magnigfied by your long days at sea. You have made many wonderful friends during your voyage, and you find yourself comparing stories with others who also traveled by sea rather than by air.


People continue to fly to Australia as often as they like, but you are able to travel only once, perhaps twice. Some say things like, "Oh, be glad you didn't fly. My flight was horrible; traveling by sea is so easy."


You will always wonder what it would have been like to fly to Australia. Still, you know God blessed you with a special appreciation of Australia, and the beauty of Australia is not in the way you get there, but in the place itself.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

It's the Little Things

Lately, I have been trying to focus on all the many ways I am blessed.  It's so easy to think about how we don't have a child but, I have so much to be thankful for.  I don't want to live thinking only about the future.  I know God has a plan and he is with us.  Right now I am thinking of the many ways I am thankful for Jon because I don't tell him enough.  However, there are so many different aspects of my life I am thankful. 

The little (and big) things I am thankful for about Jon:

-Getting me gas because he knows I don't like it
-That I married a man who enjoys doing the dishes
-Making my lunch and breakfast for me everyday (yes)
-Complimenting me almost everyday
-Kissing me goodbye and telling me "love you" everytime we say goodbye
-Telling me he loves me for no reason
-Being married to my best friend
-Watching a certain runway show with me
-Surprising me for lunch at school
-Surprising me somewhere just because he misses me
-Working out together
-AND SO MUCH MORE

I have so much to be thankful for!  I think it helps for us to actually think about all the actual ways we are blessed.